well actually

Well actually,

I want to contact you but know I'm just a disturbance... I won't contact you.

Well actually,

I want to know your conditions right now by checking your account but knowing I'll only get jealous... I distract myself again.

Well actually, 

I miss you

But forget it

As long you are happy my dear...

I'll restrain myself from not seeing you, not contacting you, not thinking about you...

as long you are happy,

my dear.